3 weeks = 3 years?

It is 3 weeks later since i backed from my home.

Is only 3 weeks but i feel like 3 years passed (i know is a little bit exaggerate). I miss my sweet home, my dad, my mom, my sisters, my brother, and my little nephew.

I don’t know why actually i miss my home very much but i still wanna to work very far away from my sweet home? Anybody know why? Can you please tell me?

Now, there is always a question is repeated voicing in my heart:” When is the right time for me to go back?”

To make decision or to decide something is always the hardest and the most difficult. I think i have got the answer but i’ m not ready to face it yet. Just wait for that time comes.

A New Life for My Family ^_^

Since yesterday i received my mom’s message saying that my younger sister had admitted to hospital due to her amniotic fluid was slowly coming out. But she can’t deliver yet because she didn’t feel the pain at all. So doctor advise this morning have to induce for her.

This morning after woke up, i called my mom then my mom told me, sis still the same.  When the second time i call my mom, my sis had been induced and she was suffering the pain. I could heard her shout from the phone. Not really loud but i knew that she was in terrible painful. I really worried about her.

Luckily, about 2pm, mom called me and announced a good news to me. My sis had delivered a baby boy. ^_^

So greats to hear this news. We all ‘promote’! haha. My sis and bro-in-law become new born mummy and new born daddy; my mom and dad become grandma and grandpa; my youngest sis and i become auntie while my youngest bro become uncle. huhu!

Thanks to everybody for the wishes and bless that you all gave to my sis, her baby boy, and our family. ^_^

Thanks Buddha for His kindness of not letting my sis suffering the pain for long time and also protect my sis, her baby boy and our family. And also thanks Buddha for giving us such a greats baby into our family. Amitabha

Here comes my nephew (Not yet give him the name so can’t put his name yet).

Changes of My Job

I think, I’ve been long time do not update any post here.

Recently, there are some changes of my job scope. Previously, my job is received purchase order, shipment rescheduling, and arrange shipment. But now, I’ve to do neither my previous work (but I am doing less now) nor my new task, as a ‘Junior Sales Engineer’ (please take note, this is not the exact job title given from my company).

What is exactly I’ve to do in this new department? Study drawing, material sourcing, costing, quotation, etc (still in learning progress so quite hard for me to explain more). I think I still able to handle these new stuffs well; however, I’m not so sure what about after my manager backs to office? Because she used to complain a lot and she never explains everything she wants us to do clearly and nicely. Thus, I am thinking maybe we will ‘fight’ often as I always have my own opinion and she neither. Haha!

Well, everything in this new department still fresh and new for me. I believe I can do it, just give me some time.  Actually i don’t know if i will switch to this new department in someday or i will be pulled back to the previous one? But i wish to move forward, instead of staying at the same spot. Like what my guy senior call me, Predator. Haha! I will kill all the Aliens (problems which might facing in my works) which blocking my way to move forward (too exaggerate..haha).

What’s N.A.T.O Means!!!

What’s NATO means?

I’m not sure but i know it does mean something for someone who told me this.

Last two days i heard this word, ‘NATO’. When i heard this i’m not sure what organisation is it but after i heard the explanation of ‘somebody’ own sentence then i realized this word means “No Action Talk Only”

So coincidence, yesterday i saw this word, ‘NATO’. Quickly, i took out my phone to take a shot of it.

Herewith the picture.

N.A.T.O (No Action Talk Only)

Please be remembered, Don’t be NATO’s people. hehe!

127 Hours

Another’s great movie i watched just now with my best friend=roommate nearby our stay place, <127 Hours>.

This is a true story about an mountain climber, Aron who trapped himself with the boulder crashed on his arm after he fallen from the top of the 60-foot wall at an isolated canyon in Utah.

Imagine, 127 hours, 5 and a half day, one bottle of water, no food, no bed, no blanket, no electricity, no sofa but stand under the canyon for such long times. If is me in this situation, i think i can’t survive.

During the movie, i’m keep wondering how he’s gonna to extricate from this place. Is somebody else walk by and notice him ‘wave’ to them from the bottom? No, nobody else. How he is gonna to free himself?

This was the most nausea scene, as he broke his right arm’s bone and ‘saw’ his arm off to extricate from the boulder. I can only heard his screamed of painful and the sound effect of when he cutting the nerves. Why i said heard but not watch due to my head was turned to other side because i felt sick to watch it.

Finally, he lost his right arm but he survive and is able to see his lovely parent, sister, and friends whose he ceaseless think of when trapped under the canyon.

Why his family and friends won’t look for him during this 5.5 days? May be they did but no use because no one at all know where he gone. He never tell neither his family or friends where he will go. However, after this incident, he learned to leave a note to inform his goes place.

Remember to leave a note or inform the people you love where will you go. In case there is something happen, they will know where to look for you.

127 Hours

One Month Ago!!!

Time, is really fast to fly away from us. But, what about the sadness and unhappiness? Will them gone from us in fast too? No, they don’t. they won’t go away, however, they will hide inside our heart and our memory and sometime they will appear and punch us to let us feel the pain.

Kong Seng, you had left us for a month, we really miss you so much, especially your family and Fang.

Yesterday after reach home from work, i signed in my FB and found that Fang tagged me in your birthday video clip that we celebrated for you this 30 May’10 at Station 1 Cafe in Jaya One. Fortunately, i did met up with you and Fang, if not, even one chance i also won’t have to celebrate your birthday.

Yes, that was the first time and also now become my last time to celebrate your birthday. In the video clip shown that you were happy and embarrassed. You happy because of the celebration; Embarrassed due to we sang loudly to you the birthday song. After the song end, i gave you a big hug. When i saw this part, my heart really feel in painful and i feel really sad, until my tears uncontrolable keep dropping from my eyes.

Kong Seng boy, sis miss you so much. I really hope that you never left us and still staying with us. I really hope that you could back to us. But i know that it’s is impossible, impossible for this life.

Sis hope that you can live happiness in your world now, without any stress and problems. We will always miss you, Kong Seng. You’re our beloved forever.

Amitabha!!!

^_^~~Kong Seng~~^_^

Kong Seng and Me

Kong Seng and MinFang

Friends and Kong Seng

上星期日·这一个小时里·This One Hour of Last Sunday

上星期日的晚上10点钟至11点钟，这一个小时里，是你，光盛，发生车祸，然后被送去医院，急救，医生宣布急救失败，结果芳就收到了关于你离开我们的噩耗。

你离开我们一个星期了，大家都非常的想念你咯！你呢？会想念我们吗？

今天下午，在从KL回新加坡的路途中，听到芳唱给你听的《心肝宝贝》时，心里有如被尖利的刀子，一刀一刀的刺进去，很痛很痛。回想起你们两甜甜蜜蜜的时刻，真是让我心酸。

这几天陪着芳，真的让我不知道怎么去安慰她，也不想怎么安慰她，因为我知道她的心很痛很痛很痛。希望芳能够振作，不要想不开。

想念你哦！光盛！

亲爱的光盛！安息吧！Our Dearest Kong Seng! Rest in Peace!

今天早上，受到妈妈发来的简讯。很不幸的是一个非常坏的消息。

信息里头写着，光盛因昨晚的一起车祸意外中，离开了我们，是去怡保的途中。当我打电话给妈妈时，一直不停的问：“是真的吗？还是还有的救？是真的走了吗？是真的吗？”

其实心理非常希望妈妈会告诉我说那都是假的，但是妈妈忍着伤心，很确实的告诉我说光盛真的离开我们了。还在巴士上的我，泪水不停的流下来，一边下巴士，一边过马路，一直哭着走到公司门口，才忍了下来。

我的心很痛很痛很痛，从未有心理准备要去接受这个事实，也不可能会有这种准备。我根本无法相信自己说听到的，根本无法相信好好的光盛怎么就这么样离开了我们。

记得大多亲戚朋友都说光盛和铭芳很像脸，很有夫妻相，甚至有些人会以为他是我的弟弟。事实上我也真的已经把当成是我的弟弟，或则是我未来的妹夫。

我很想念光盛，想念光盛每次进出我的家，想念他的冷笑话，想念他的笑容，想念他的歌声，想念和他一起玩牌，想念和他一起玩，想念他的一切一切。。。

多么好的一个男孩，多么孝顺的儿子，多么体贴的男朋友，多么和蔼的朋友，多么优秀的学生，多么勤劳的男孩，多么善良的光盛；为什么这些事会发生在他的身上呢？为什么？为什么？为什么？

明天早上是他的火化礼，真的非常希望能送光盛最后一程，但是我去不了，很遗憾。无论怎么样，我希望光盛能早登西方极乐，脱离世间的苦，好好的过光盛的日子。

阿弥陀佛！

光盛·Kong Sheng

The hardest and the most grievous funeral and cremation ceremony!!!

Yesterday night (2 Nov’10), all of the company’s staffs been to Darren’s funeral.

When i reached there, i could started to feel the sadness of the family. My colleagues and i walked to the family members to say condolence. But, it’s very hard to say it out when you really met them face to face, especially when we saw our director.

The granny, Darren’s mom, Darren’s eldest sister, my director, my boss (director’s eldest bro), my director’s elder sisters were cried piteously at the funeral. I felt so hard and sad to hear theirs crying. Not only me, all of the attendant were sobbing from the beginning until the end of the funeral.

It was so many attendant present at the funeral, i guess might more than hundreds people to share the grieve with the family.

This afternoon, i followed few of my colleagues to Darren’s cremation ceremony. I don’t wish to elaborate to much about how sad they are and what i seen there. But, i can tell you all that the family’s members are all broke down and disintegrate, especially when come to the cremating part.

Sigh! I really never thought that i will have the chance been ‘invited’ to attend such ceremony in Singapore. In fact, i really hope i don’t have this chance as it’s not a happy ceremony. Not a happy but was the most hardest and the most grievous ceremony that i been. I grieved for my grandma’s dead last two years, but hers was not like that.

I am wondering how my colleagues and i gonna to face our bosses and what should we react when they back to work? However, i believe that from now on, we won’t able to see their real smile on the face.

Darren was a Christian so i wish that he is now with his God and rest in peace with God, leave all the bad things away from him. And, i also wish that the family can overcome from the tragedy soon.

Amitabha!!!

 

A Horrified News

As usual, i been to work, walked into the office, switched on my PC then make coffee with my bread.

Before i could taken my breakfast, Miss E asked me to go toward then told me a really bad and horrified news. It’s not about about the works, not about her personal method, and also not about myself. But about the death of my director’s only son, Darren Ng.

How could it be!!! I’m so shocked to hear that and i can’t really believed what i heard. Too sudden it’s happened and of course i never think before this.

I met Darren once before when he came to the office to look for her aunt who is the HR cum Account’s Department Manager. He was only 19 years old, studied in Republic Polytechnic, Singapore.

This sad incident occurred in late afternoon on Saturday (30 Oct’10). Please refer below link to read further:-

http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_597771.html

Why this gangster thing will happened in Singapore? Why was Darren? Why this will happened on the person around me? Why! Why! Why!

Hopefully the policemen can faster arrest the murderer and sentenced them to death or imprisonment.

Hopefully my director and his family can come over this and wish Darren could rest in peace in another world.